starlight_express⭐️

It's okay to not be part of someone else's story. You have your own.  In your story, you can continue facing the elevator walls to avoid eye contact with other people. You can always listen to loud music through your earphones when you have no choice but to sit with others during lunch. You can always go out of the office building through the fire exit finding peace with the dark and quiet staircase.  It's okay to go against the plot that is written by the people around you. You may be the antagonist in their story, but you are the protagonist of your own. In your story, you can always find peace and happiness in your lonely, taking deep breaths and finding  comfort all by yourself. And that's completely okay.  x

        This was me on top of the Gungal Rock at Mt. Ulap. It was so high I remember myself really nervous, and my feet felt like they're freezing due to the height and the fact that for just 10 seconds of being stupid, I might fall for how many meters above sea levels. But I thought that time, if I won't do it this time, when?  That was weeks ago, and it's exactly what I'm questioning myself right now. If I do not focus on my family right now, when? If I do not do good in my job right now, when? And if I do not care for myself to heal from all the negativities around me, when? I'm writing this because there really are times when I find it hard to focus on my family, care for my job, and care for myself all at the same time. No matter what I do, everything just seems to be out-of-balanced and I always end up blaming myself for not being good enough to be good at everything I do. And if I won't take actions to balance all those, when will I be at peace...